That was why there were no ants in the dirt he took from the yard. But there were spider eggs, and the spider eggs hatched, thousands of tiny spiders streaming out into the house. For in the beginning he had a vision that the angels were holding his hands, and he was hanging from their hands, and the entire human race was hanging from his legs (he was the only link between the human race and the angels). Thus was he floating there in space, the link between humans and angels - though he didn't know how much he would suffer for this role. For it is easy to die, especially to die a noble death; but his burden is to live and live and live, and all he wants is to flee from life and sleep the stone's sleep and the river's sleep, with nothing to disturb his deep sleep, with no life to disturb his sleep. But he is the only link between the humans and the angels, and he must keep the link alive by living - so he suffers and suffers, lives and lives. This is why it is said of him, "He stands guard sleepless through the night, and cannot yet go off to sleep, not yet." And men also looked to the full moon and said, "It is he." But he only knows all of this in his moments of clarity, for the devils put him into a terrible confusion, and he is very confused most of the time. You have seen him out on street corners mumbling to himself, or drinking himself into oblivion so that the voices of devils and aliens can no longer reach him. He is the confused savior, lost under a sea of terror and pain.