I am weary with Blue Mary; I am weary with Blue Krishna; and so I sit long through the night, at the window of my apartment in that old house, and go through the agonies in silent ritual, the agonies that keep the aliens and devils from overtaking the world, and I wrestle with the aliens and devils. And so it is said of me, "He has taken a stand," though my nature has not been revealed just yet, not yet.